Almost.

Day 29. Who are you?

Simple, I'm Sarah.
So I'm really good at talking, but I'm not very good at talking about myself. I used to be fantastic but somewhere something changed, it's like a switch was shut off. I cant really explain. But I think I know why. I thought I used to know who I was but now I'm no where near sure. The past year of my life has really changed who I am and how I live. I've had to expierence things that 17 years olds shouldnt have to go through. Yeah, it's made me stronger, but it's had a deeper effect than just making me grow up too fast as well. The other night I was in a terrible mood, and as usual I took it out on my family. My mom came down to me and said "Sarah, I think you've been so angry and so unhappy for so long, that you dont truely know what happiness is anymore." The truth of the matter is, I dont think I know what it is anymore either. I keep hoping and praying that things will look up, that something will change, that I'll get what I need, and have what I miss, back. But thus far.. nothing. I find myself day after day trying to cover up the fact that I'm unhappy, and unfullfilled. Trying to act like everything is ok. It works for a bit. But I think I'm just manifesting the problem even more when I try to forget it. I need to solve it. I'm not sure what to rely on anymore or how to find myself in this mess that I've fallen into. I'm still searching for who I am. Maybe I'll find out who I am tomorrow, maybe I'll find out 6 years. All I know is that I need to focus on the little steps right now, by getting myself out of tmy own personal hell, then I'll create the whole picture. So for now I'm just simply Sarah Maile McClure. Take it or leave it. Yadayadayada. But I know, depressing post. But it's my blog, my feelings.. Why not?

Tweeenyate.

Day 28. Two confessions.

Errrrr, I dont really know. Let me sit her for a second and think..

Confession one;
I talk to myself, like a lot. I have full on conversations with myself.. and my dog too. But technically I'm still talking to myself cus she's not really listening. But really I talk to myself all day. I think I'm insane.

Confession two;
I'm selfish. Really really selfish. I try not to be, but sometimes it gets the best of me. I dont mean that I'm stingy, or that I want lots of things from people. It's more or less I wont do things to make other people happy. Like if I know if I do this one thing and it will make someone really happy, but I just dont want to do it, I wont. Regardless of how happy it will make someone else. I'm not saying that's a daily thing, cus usually I will do something just to make someone else happy. But sometimes, every once and a while, I only think of myself.. and it's baaaad news. Good thing it's not 24/7.

Almost done.

Day 27. Perfume of choice.

I wear a lot of different perfumes, but I'll go in order of my favs.

True Religion.
Juicy Couture Viva La Juicy.
Ralph Lauren Hot.
Nollie, pink and green editions.

Pink Sugar.

Greeeeat news!

So today I found out that I got accepted to the University of Utah! I am incredibly stoked to be continuing my future there. I'm not sure what I want to do yet, but I'm getting there. I think that I want to major in business management and minor in communications. With of course, a few photo classes. But after my four years at the U I still plan to move onto cosmetology school at Paul Mitchell. But I'm just sooo excited to start my journey at such an amazing place! Great news.


But of course, there has to be some bad news, right? I'm am devastated to say... Gossip Girl will not have a new episode until January 24th. Oh. My. God. What am I going to do? Oh I dont know! I might just go insane. Ah, crap.

Challenge is back.

Day 26. Turn offs and turn ons in the opposite sex.

Off;
Tall tees, gross.
Baggy pants.
Ompaloompas. Yeah, spray tans are gross.
DRUGS.
Shirtless pictures in a mirror all over FB? Could you quit being a girl.
D-bags. Nuff said.

On;
Sweet guys.
Dresses well.
Can hold a conversation.
Can laugh at himself.
Respectfulness.
Someone who's interested in more than just sex.

Bhahaha, my dad is the best. Recap of the conversation that just went down between us.
S; daaaadddd, you should go get me some food. I havent eaten.
D; no, you go get the food.
S; buuuuut I dont wanna moveeee.
D; well neither do I.
S; buuuut.
D; I'll let you drive my truck. Well no. Well yeah. I mean. Ok I guess you can take it.
S; BAAAHHHHHH. I dont have any money...
D; I do.
S; Okkkkkkaaayyyy! I'll go, you brat. You're so good at this game.
D; I know, I've had lots of practice. Plus you're young and all, you can take all the movement. I'm almost two days older than dirt.
S; HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH.

So now I'm am stuck going to get us lunch. Oh the things I do. But I get to drive the Silverado, so I guess it's ok. And I get free food... Phahaha, I love our relationship.

PS. I'll get back to the challenge soon. I've just had other things to say lately.

Just a little break.

So considering it's the first day of December, I figure I'll take this opportunity to publish my Christmas wishlist.

A pony. [Duh]
A million candy canes.
A new toothbrush.
Some bubble bath.
An episode of Gossip Girl where Chuck and Blair are back together for longer than an hour.
Toy Story blanket.
A lightbulb.
Some green Post-its.
A Cafe Rio salad.
Some craft supplies.
A strand of Christmas lights for my room.
An acceptance letter from the U of U with a scholarship that matches the one I got from Westminster. [$9000]
And a pretty picture of me in the snow.

Yaknow, the norm. (;