Breakdown.

It's so hard without you in my life. You havent spoken to me in two years, and just seeing you makes my heart shatter. I want you to be happy but it absolutely crushes me to see you so happy when I'm not. I can honestly say that I have not been 100% happy since 2009. How awful is that? I've been in this slump for so long that I think I'm kind of used to it... it's just kind of routine. I'm used to the fact that no one texts me, and I rarely hang out with people. I honestly am accustomed to being alone. I'm so goddamn lonely. I need something to change in my life. Anything.