So I havent blogged in a little while, shocker right? But I actually have had a lot of changes in my life since I last blogged. So here goes.

I'm at the U, and I'm pretty sure it's for good now. I just joined a sorority! It's called Alpha Phi. I'm now a founding member of the University of Utah chapter. Which I think is a really cool thing. I dont know many of my sisters yet, because I've been working all the time. But hopefully I'll get to meet them all soon. Cause lord knows I could use some friends. But I think this is going to be a good thing for me. I'll be more involved, and I'll be meeting new people. So it's a win win. The only loss is the cost. It's so dang expensive! But hopefully it will be worth it. PS I made this in Photoshop:) I guess that's another piece of small news. I bought Photoshop CS5 and S.McClurePhotography is doing better than ever. I did an entire photoshoot completely in manual mode the other day. Big accomplishment. Should I start a photography blog?? Check out my new shoots. www.facebook.com/S.McClurePhotography

On to the next thing. Work. I got a new job attttt... drumroll please.. PACSUN. My favorite store! It's been a good and a bad thing. I've spent soooo much money there since I started working, but I've also made a ton. I love the people I work with, they're awesome. I have already had some crazy memories with almost all of my co-workers. I'm excited to be there, and to hopefully move up in positions at some point. But for now I'm content with being a brand rep. My manager Meggan and I climbing the shelves in the back room while doing inventory. I was sooo scared, I dont like being that high up.

Next item of business, I had to put down my baby girl Lady, and it was the most awful thing I've ever done. I seriously cried for two days straight. But she's not suffering or in pain anymore, which is the most important part. But we got a new puppy about two weeks ago, and she is adorable. She's in her playful, I want to chew on everything stage, and it drives me nuts. But then sometimes, like right now, she'll just fall asleep with me. She's sleeping on my arm as I type this. Soo cute. I dont want her to get bigger! I like her to fit in the palm of my hand.

Other than that I guess there havent been many other changes. I still dislike college, and dont know if I'm in the right place. But I'm sure I'm going to feel like that for a while, it doesnt just go away overnight. Overall I think I'm in an alright place. I could be one million times better. But I'm content right now.

Breakdown.

It's so hard without you in my life. You havent spoken to me in two years, and just seeing you makes my heart shatter. I want you to be happy but it absolutely crushes me to see you so happy when I'm not. I can honestly say that I have not been 100% happy since 2009. How awful is that? I've been in this slump for so long that I think I'm kind of used to it... it's just kind of routine. I'm used to the fact that no one texts me, and I rarely hang out with people. I honestly am accustomed to being alone. I'm so goddamn lonely. I need something to change in my life. Anything.

FML.

Back to stressing about college. SHOCKER. Thus far I dont like the U, but at the same time I havent given it a huge chance either.. But everytime I go to St George I find myself thinking that I made a mistake by not moving down there. I did some research today on the drive home from St G and Dixie has the major that I want, and it would only be about $500 more than the U per semester, and that's if I live on campus. If I move in with my aunt and cousins it will be cheaper. But I just dont know. I dont know if I'll be happy there for three years either. I CANT MAKE UP MY GODDAMN MIND. Someone juts slap me. But I'm trying to relax myself right now.. I mean I have like 5 months to decide. I'll finish out the year at the U, and then hopefully I'll then what the right decision is..

But on a lighter note, I found this list and thought Id blog about it. :)
1. Favorite TV show?


2. Song I can't stop listening to is... As usual, anything by;

3. Red or nude lips? I wish I could wear red, but I'd probably be caught with nude lips.

4. Facebook or Twitter?

5. Gold or silver?


6. Favorite fashion designer? Welp, this is pretty much my entire wardrobe..

7. Any recent travels? Read my first paragraph..


8. Makeup you can't live without? Translucent powder is the only thing I wear!


9. Favorite childhood TV show?


10. Straight, curly or wavy hair?

11. Nickname? SMILEY

12. Heels or flats? I wish I could wear heels more often.. But I'm always in flats.

Inspiration.

SO...

First day of..

FALL.
Today is the first day of fall! Which also means that it is the fall equinox, so night and day will each be 12 hours. Fall is one of my favorite seasons. I love the crunchy leaves, the warm fuzzy clothes, and the holidays. So this blog was absolutely pointless, but I was 40 minutes early to class.. So I needed something to do.