Life as we know it.

I never, ever, never, blog. I feel like it's pointless for me to have one, if I never use it. So I am going to go on a hunt, and find something to blog about. I found a survey that was called Obscure Questions, so of course I decided that was what I was going to blog about at 2 in the morning. Here weeee go.

1: What eye color do you find sexiest? Blue!

2: White, milk, or dark chocolate mocha? White Chocolate Mocha!

3: If you could get a Sharpie tattoo on your back, what would it be? A sharpie tattoo?? I dont know, a dream catcher, or something.

4: Did you grow up in a small or big town? Did you like it? Compared to other cities around the world, it's small. But in Utah it's huge.

5: Your favorite adult as a child? Well, obvi my parents. But other than them, Pam Smith, she was my best friends mom [aka my second mom].

6: What kind of smoothie sounds really good right now? A raspberry one.

7: Most embarrassing moment from your elementary school years? I walked into the guys bathroom on accident.

8: Most embarrassing moment from your middle school years? I was a huge clutz, ran into everything.

9: Most embarrassing moment from your high school years? Def the way I dressed and acted.

10: Pirates or ninjas? Why? Ninja. I dont know, they're cooler.

11: Have you ever climbed a tree more than twenty feet off the ground? No.

12: Did you like swinging as a child? Do you still get excited when you see a swing set? HELLS YES.

13: If you could have any pet in the world, illegal or not, what would you get? A tiger.

14: What's your most favorite part of your body? My smile.

15: What's your most favorite part of your personality? I always want to help people before myself.

16: Madonna or Lady Gaga? Neither? Both? Who cares? Who cares?

17: Have you ever watched the Superbowl all the way through? Yeaaaahh.

18: Have you ever watched any major sporting event drunk? Cant say I have.

19: What's the most delicious food you've ever eaten in your life? I dont know the answer to that.

20: Margarine or butter? Which did you grow up with?Fake butter, not margarine though.

21: Whole, skim, 1%, or 2% milk? (Did you know they make 1 1/2% milk?) I dont really like milk, but occasionally, whole milk.

22: Which continents have you been on? North America and South America.

23: Do you get motion sickness? Any horror stories? Nope.

24: Backpacks or satchels? Backpack?

25: If you had to look at one city skyline for the rest of your life, which would it be? New York, hands down.

26: Do you swear in front of your parents? Yeah.. I dont have secrets from them.

27: Can you walk well in high heels? Even if you're a guy? I cant walk in heels to save my life.

So I havent blogged in a little while, shocker right? But I actually have had a lot of changes in my life since I last blogged. So here goes.

I'm at the U, and I'm pretty sure it's for good now. I just joined a sorority! It's called Alpha Phi. I'm now a founding member of the University of Utah chapter. Which I think is a really cool thing. I dont know many of my sisters yet, because I've been working all the time. But hopefully I'll get to meet them all soon. Cause lord knows I could use some friends. But I think this is going to be a good thing for me. I'll be more involved, and I'll be meeting new people. So it's a win win. The only loss is the cost. It's so dang expensive! But hopefully it will be worth it. PS I made this in Photoshop:) I guess that's another piece of small news. I bought Photoshop CS5 and S.McClurePhotography is doing better than ever. I did an entire photoshoot completely in manual mode the other day. Big accomplishment. Should I start a photography blog?? Check out my new shoots. www.facebook.com/S.McClurePhotography

On to the next thing. Work. I got a new job attttt... drumroll please.. PACSUN. My favorite store! It's been a good and a bad thing. I've spent soooo much money there since I started working, but I've also made a ton. I love the people I work with, they're awesome. I have already had some crazy memories with almost all of my co-workers. I'm excited to be there, and to hopefully move up in positions at some point. But for now I'm content with being a brand rep. My manager Meggan and I climbing the shelves in the back room while doing inventory. I was sooo scared, I dont like being that high up.

Next item of business, I had to put down my baby girl Lady, and it was the most awful thing I've ever done. I seriously cried for two days straight. But she's not suffering or in pain anymore, which is the most important part. But we got a new puppy about two weeks ago, and she is adorable. She's in her playful, I want to chew on everything stage, and it drives me nuts. But then sometimes, like right now, she'll just fall asleep with me. She's sleeping on my arm as I type this. Soo cute. I dont want her to get bigger! I like her to fit in the palm of my hand.

Other than that I guess there havent been many other changes. I still dislike college, and dont know if I'm in the right place. But I'm sure I'm going to feel like that for a while, it doesnt just go away overnight. Overall I think I'm in an alright place. I could be one million times better. But I'm content right now.

Breakdown.

It's so hard without you in my life. You havent spoken to me in two years, and just seeing you makes my heart shatter. I want you to be happy but it absolutely crushes me to see you so happy when I'm not. I can honestly say that I have not been 100% happy since 2009. How awful is that? I've been in this slump for so long that I think I'm kind of used to it... it's just kind of routine. I'm used to the fact that no one texts me, and I rarely hang out with people. I honestly am accustomed to being alone. I'm so goddamn lonely. I need something to change in my life. Anything.

FML.

Back to stressing about college. SHOCKER. Thus far I dont like the U, but at the same time I havent given it a huge chance either.. But everytime I go to St George I find myself thinking that I made a mistake by not moving down there. I did some research today on the drive home from St G and Dixie has the major that I want, and it would only be about $500 more than the U per semester, and that's if I live on campus. If I move in with my aunt and cousins it will be cheaper. But I just dont know. I dont know if I'll be happy there for three years either. I CANT MAKE UP MY GODDAMN MIND. Someone juts slap me. But I'm trying to relax myself right now.. I mean I have like 5 months to decide. I'll finish out the year at the U, and then hopefully I'll then what the right decision is..

But on a lighter note, I found this list and thought Id blog about it. :)
1. Favorite TV show?


2. Song I can't stop listening to is... As usual, anything by;

3. Red or nude lips? I wish I could wear red, but I'd probably be caught with nude lips.

4. Facebook or Twitter?

5. Gold or silver?


6. Favorite fashion designer? Welp, this is pretty much my entire wardrobe..

7. Any recent travels? Read my first paragraph..


8. Makeup you can't live without? Translucent powder is the only thing I wear!


9. Favorite childhood TV show?


10. Straight, curly or wavy hair?

11. Nickname? SMILEY

12. Heels or flats? I wish I could wear heels more often.. But I'm always in flats.

Inspiration.

SO...

First day of..

FALL.
Today is the first day of fall! Which also means that it is the fall equinox, so night and day will each be 12 hours. Fall is one of my favorite seasons. I love the crunchy leaves, the warm fuzzy clothes, and the holidays. So this blog was absolutely pointless, but I was 40 minutes early to class.. So I needed something to do.

Ok, so..

I havent blogged in a little minute, so I might as well catch you up on my life.

OHMYHECK, my life has been crazy. After graduation I was set on going to Dixie, but the more I tried to contact my aunt about living with her the more stressed I got. So then I decided that I would go to the U, it's close to home, and I'd have the help of my parents. So I went to U orientation and just freeeeaked out. It was just too much to handle, I was way too stressed. I started debating between Dixie and SLCC again, and enrolled at SLCC. I signed up for all my classes, got my books, I was all ready for school. I went to the first day of school there and hated it. I dont know why, but I did. So I came home that night and checked to see if I was still enrolled at the U.. I was. I quickly signed up for what ever classes they had open [they started school before SLCC] and went to the U the next day.
So now I am at the U.
After all of that, I still dont know how much I like college. All of my classes are big auditorium classes, and I havent made a single friend no matter how hard I try. It's kinda getting me down. I tried to rush a sorority but ended up dropping out at the last second. I think I might try again if they have spring rush though..
I still feel like I'm not where I'm supposed to be though.

I'm not sure where I'm headed right now, but I sure as hell am trying to figure it out.

Stumbleupon.

So last night I was "stumbling upon" things, and I came across a website with 80 different topics that you can use to help you start writing. So I figure why not blog about a few of them.

Describe 5 things you want to see or do before it’s too late.

One; I want to go skydiving. Hopefully I will get to this year, in fact.
Two; Fall in love. Yeah, yeah, cheesy. I know. But I still want to.
Three; I want to live in New York, at some point in my life.
Four; I want to live my life to the fullest, and achieve everything that I set my mind and heart to.
Five; I want to do something good for the world, something that people will always remember me by. I just havent figured out what yet.

Laast day.

Day 15: Five good things about yourself, and five bad.

Let's start with the bad, so I can redeem myself here.

BAD;

One; I dwell. I dwell on the past, and some days it's nearly impossible for me to live in the present. I wish I could let go of my past, but I'm just not there yet.

Two; I'm a stubborn s.o.b. You piss me off, you'd better understand that I'm probs not going to be the person to fix things between us. Unless I really care about you.

Three; I'm honest. Too honest.

Four; I have certain expectations of people and when they dont meet them that relationship tends to fall apart..

Five; Last, and worst of all. I'm heartless, in a sense. I'm sick of getting hurt.. so I walk away from people before it gets to the point where they have the chance to hurt me. I pull away from everyone because of the bad experiences I've had, and the shitty ways that people have treated me. I'm working on it, but right now I'm worse than ever.

Good;

One; According to people [dont think I'm being cocky] my smile can brighten up a day. I love my smile, and it makes me soo happy when people tell me I have a nice smile.

Two; You can almost always turn my frown upside down by making me laugh.

Three; I love to make people happy.

Four; I love to make new friends, and start things off on the right foot with people.

Five; I have good intentions. I never set out to spitefully harm someone, I never want to hurt anyone. I know I've hurt people in my life, but it's never been intentional.

14.

Day 14. FIVE strange foods you eat, mix, etc.

One; When I order dip eggs at a resturaunt and I get toast with them too, I always put grape jelly on it, and then eat the egg with it. It's yummy, dont know why I do it.

Two; Bacon and syrup. Pretty self-explanatory.

Three; Cheese and apples. Jusss a little slice of chedder, or laughing cow cheese and I'm good to go. But I dont think I'm the only person that does this. But it's about the only time I'll eat cheese.

Four; Corn and mashed potatoes. Whenever ever I have both I always mix them together.

Five; Yogurt and cereal. I dont like yogurt plain, so I aalways put something in it. Whether it's granola or captin crunch.

Day 13.

Day 13. FIVE great inventions.

One; Light. I mean really, what would we do without light? I sure need it.

Two; Cars. I wish I knew how they worked.

Three; Cell phones. How do those buggers even work? I try and figure it out, and it deff does not work.

Four; Sliced bread. It'd kinda suck if I had to eat a full loaf of bread everyday. Hahah.

Five; Facebook. A great, yet detrimental invention. Pretty self-explanatory.

Sorry that I'm too lazy to post pictures..

Wooops.

I havent blogged in forevvver, it feels like. I've just had a lot of shit to deal with. It's been a rough few weeks and I'm just waiting for things to get better. Update on my life; took a tour at Paul Mitchell yesterday.. fell even more in love. Crap. But at least the tour made my mom realize that it's about more than just cutting hair, and she is now on board with me going there.. After college. Hmmmpf. So now I need to decide between SLCC, U of U, and Dixie. What to do, what to do? Why do I have to decide my future now. Eff.

Anyway, Day 12. FIVE things that win you over in any sort of relationship. Hmmm.

One; Trust and honesty. I think they go hand in hand.

Two; Someone who believes in me.

Three; Unconditional love. Ok, that should be the first one. But I'm too lazy to switch it up.

Four; Compassion. I'm not sure if that's the right word, but lets put it this way. I always put my friends and family before myself in my life. And I'm not saying I want someone to do that 24/7, but it'd be nice to have a friend do that for me once and while too.

Five; Happiness. I have to be able to be happy with being with that person, no matter what we're doing.

Eleven?

Day 11. FIVE crushes.

Easy.
David Boreanaz, Chace Crawford, Kevin Zegers, Ashton Kutcher, Shia LaBeouf.

10

Day ten. FIVE sleeping habits.

Most of these habits apply when I'm alone.. If I'm sleeping over with a friend, I pretty much disregard them all. Ha

One; I have to sleep with sound. I like the sound of traffic, or a loud fan that I have in my room.

Two; I cant sleep in pitch black. I have a fear of the unknown, so I always sleep with a tiny bit of light. Which is usually the light from my iHome.

Three; My dog sleeps on my bed with me. Always.

Four; I sleep on the side of my bed that is closest to the wall. Just one little corner on my big bed.

Five; I have 5 pillows on my bed, but I only sleep with one. I throw the rest of them on the floor when I sleep.

Niner.

Day 9: FIVE random facts.

One; I get headaches nearly everyday. I'm giving you this fact, becaause I happen to have one right this second.

Two; My dream car is a red Toyota 4Runner, or a blue Toyota FJ.

Three; I love hand sanitizer. It makes my hands feel soo clean.

Four; I bought the number 4 dress from a few posts down today. I got that picture from Delias.com, but I found the dress for way cheaper at TJ Maxx. Only difference is, instead of a tie waistband it has a black stretchy fabric there.

Five; I hate texting.. PS I'll probably never text you back.

Ate.

Day 8. FIVE things you are thinking right now.

One; I wish I wouldnt have left my iPod in my car. I'm too lazy to go get it.

Two; I wanna go see a movie with this kid, wish he'd text me back. Brat.

Three; I wanna know wtf is wrong with my memory card, and why it's messing up my 700$ camera. I'ma flip out.

Four; Someone just texted me. I wonder who..

Five; Should I read after this, or watch and episode of Bones?

Seven.

Day 7. FIVE things you tell yourself you will never do.

Errrr..

One; Do drugs. I will never ever do drugs.

Two; I will never wear Crocs. Not even when I'm and old lady gardening.

Three; Wear animal print. Yick, no. Not happening.

Four; I will never work in fast food.

Five; Aaand, I will never drive a van. You couldnt pay me enough. Hahaha.

Day six.

Day 6. FIVE things you would wear to a party right now.

It depends on what kind of party... I'm more of a casual person, so we're going to go with that.

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Five;

Fivers.

Day 5. FIVE things im addicted to at the moment.

One; Google. It is my beeest friend. I google everything. I am currently obsessed with Googling places and tips for my photography.

Two; Ke$ha. I missed her concert last week, and it bummed me out. So I bought her CD and it's been on replay for 3 days.

Three;Planning my life. I just sit and daydream about my life to come. It excites me to finally be done with Highland, and stupid high school.

Four; Bones. I have the biggest obsession with the show Bones. I watched seasons 1-4 in February. I'm now well into the 5th season, and then I have to wait for the 6th to be on Netflix. But I love that show. Bones and Booth need to get together already, sheesh.

Five; ^^^Netflix. It is a gift from God. I love looking in the mail and getting a movie. And I have it on my Wii too. So I can just lay in bed at watch Bones all day. Plus I've heard that Blockbuster is closing.. So it looks like it's just Netflix and Redbox now.

4 I think...

Day 4. FIVE songs your addicted to at the moment.

Uhm........... let me think.
One; A Little Bit Stronger by Leighton Meester.
Two; Take Me Away by Hayes Carll
Three; Blow by Ke$ha
Four; Mayday by The Icarus Account. PS this is an all time fav.
Five; Raise Your Weapon by Deadmau5